lovaliss's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -I can hear my neighbors sex I really get sick of this early 20's limbo I live in. I feel like I just have to patiently wait for life to start. I'm stuck inside the transition of everything...and that damn envelope with my future inside is nowhere to be found. I feel like screaming the f-word every day it doesn't come...which seems like such a weird reaction to someone awaiting their mission call. I have something to say about that. Just because I'm going out to talk about the gospel and serve people doesn't mean my personalty is going to change or that I won't still sometimes want to say the f-word in my mind...in fact I'm guessing that there is going to be a lot of times on my mission that I feel like saying the f-word. That doesn't mean that I don't love the Lord or have a testimony. I guess I'm saying this in defense to Erin's joke a while ago that I wasn't ready to go on a mission. However, A newly married couple lives above us and we can hear them having sex. Mostly just the floor boards squeaking rhythmically...then stopping...then starting...then stopping...then starting with a change of tempo. It's REALLY distracting when I'm trying to study my scriptures. I envy the couple above me that has guilt-free sex because they're married. Curse them. That must be a great feeling. 2:07 p.m. - 2005-05-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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