lovaliss's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -who knows about religion anymore I've been going through this weird phase the last three days where I was suddenly wracked with doubt of everything. In a matter of three days I had myself wondering if I even believed the Church...which is so outrageous for me because regardless of it I've lived it or not, I've never not believed. I started thinking of all the things that would change it if wasn't true and how different my life would be and what I would do if I decided it wasn't. Tonight I rediscovered the feeling I have been lacking for three days straight. And when I felt it I sobbed on my knees until my eyes stung and felt sleepy. I feel more content than I've felt in three days, the kind of content you feel when you realize that Heavenly Father is hearing you or more so that your prayers are finally humble enough to be real. 11:31 p.m. - 2005-04-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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